Useless

Well I feel 100% useless *sigh*...

I don't know, I just am in a foul mood at the moment. Wondering what I'm going to do with my life and what not.

Should I make a blog on tumblr?
Should I stick it out in life some more and wait for something to happen?
Should I ride my bike into town and try and make myself useless?
Should I waste another day online?

These are my conundrums. There quite plentiful as you can see... whatever.

I'm just upset cause I'm thinking about how unproductive my life has been and it's getting me down.  :( ugh, I need a life.

Well, I have a short story for you... A few days ago I was feeling pretty down in the dumps -not unusual- so I put on the proper cloths and took a walk in the woods behind my house.
There was pretty much no one around -not that there usually is- 'cause it was raining and all that. ANYWAYS, I walked down to my little spot and I just sorta let it all out. I picked a tree and told that tree my insecurities.
Ok, YES, that's kinda sad, but hey! I've always felt more at home when I'm near a tree. When I was in preschool -before I met my best friend Hannah- my best friend was a tree! I spent nearly every recess with that tree!
This is getting depressing... anyways, back to the forest. -keep in mind that it had been raining all day- Well when I first got there I took off my raincoat  and set it on the ground to sit on, but this spider crawled onto it so I kinda dumped that idea...
So instead of risking another run in with a spider I got up and leaned against this skinny tree. THAT'S when I told my pitiful story to nature.
Well, when I was finished my story the tree was leaking water!!  I mean, it had most likely taken on too much water from all the rain. But, it was kinda nice not being the only one crying...

Ok I'm done with this. I'm not making any sense.

~Sammie