So I was talking to my friends today and... I think I just feel worse. Have you ever tried to get someone to understand your predicament but no one seems to get it?
Well that's exactly what's going on here, and the more I explain it the more everyone seems to back off.
I get that everyone thinks it's weird that I can go out but I don't go to school. I think it's weird too!! and when I explain why that it's 'good for my health and lowers the risk of suicide' they just kind of give me this skeptical look. I've even had someone flat out tell me that they don't believe me. That someone was a really close friend.
That's the reason why I don't really try and explain it very often. I only try with my close friends, and with all the time I put into my explination.... well, it all seems waisted. They don't believe me, and they don't seem to be trying to understand! it's a two way street.
My life, since the first grade, has been some sort of twisted uphill battle. When I was six years old I was led up into the attic by a kid my parents were babysitting and orally raped. His name was Miguel and he was ten...
Untill 7th grade all of my teachers always got on my case about how awful I was at spelling. They would always say that I just needed to practice and study. They gave me packets of words and tips on different study techneques, but by 6th grade I'd given up studying.
It's because of spelling tests that I'm such a sucessful cheater (when I apply myself of course! I don't cheat anymore!!!) In order to pass I had to spell and since I couldn't spell I relied of those that could! It worked too. I passed nearly all of my language arts classes (from first to sixth) with A's ^_^
Hey! Wait a moment!! I stopped cheating in fourth grade!!! Like I said by 6th grade I just gave up! (by the way I had two years of third grade. We moved after my first year of third grade and [because of spelling] I asked if I could repeat the year)
After fourth grade I simply relied on the vocabulary tests to help me pass the class. I dropped a letter grade but I consider it worth it. Freaking out over spelling was just way too stressful! Anyways, I'm much better with my letters now :) halfway through 7th grade words found their blueprints and things just began to kilck!
I gotta say, life is much easier when you can spell!!! That's pretty much it with spelling. It doesn't freak me out anymore (which is extreemly nice) so that closes this chapter of my lovely little auto biography. I'll write more about my life later! Thanks for reading!!!!
~Rose
Well that's exactly what's going on here, and the more I explain it the more everyone seems to back off.
I get that everyone thinks it's weird that I can go out but I don't go to school. I think it's weird too!! and when I explain why that it's 'good for my health and lowers the risk of suicide' they just kind of give me this skeptical look. I've even had someone flat out tell me that they don't believe me. That someone was a really close friend.
That's the reason why I don't really try and explain it very often. I only try with my close friends, and with all the time I put into my explination.... well, it all seems waisted. They don't believe me, and they don't seem to be trying to understand! it's a two way street.
My life, since the first grade, has been some sort of twisted uphill battle. When I was six years old I was led up into the attic by a kid my parents were babysitting and orally raped. His name was Miguel and he was ten...
Untill 7th grade all of my teachers always got on my case about how awful I was at spelling. They would always say that I just needed to practice and study. They gave me packets of words and tips on different study techneques, but by 6th grade I'd given up studying.
It's because of spelling tests that I'm such a sucessful cheater (when I apply myself of course! I don't cheat anymore!!!) In order to pass I had to spell and since I couldn't spell I relied of those that could! It worked too. I passed nearly all of my language arts classes (from first to sixth) with A's ^_^
Hey! Wait a moment!! I stopped cheating in fourth grade!!! Like I said by 6th grade I just gave up! (by the way I had two years of third grade. We moved after my first year of third grade and [because of spelling] I asked if I could repeat the year)
After fourth grade I simply relied on the vocabulary tests to help me pass the class. I dropped a letter grade but I consider it worth it. Freaking out over spelling was just way too stressful! Anyways, I'm much better with my letters now :) halfway through 7th grade words found their blueprints and things just began to kilck!
I gotta say, life is much easier when you can spell!!! That's pretty much it with spelling. It doesn't freak me out anymore (which is extreemly nice) so that closes this chapter of my lovely little auto biography. I'll write more about my life later! Thanks for reading!!!!
~Rose
