It's been a while~

Hey guys! So yeah... wow it's been a while o.O

So this year I dropped out of the public high school I was going to and began home school. This helped with my depression and stuff.

But what I really want to talk about is boys ;) well, more like boy. A boy that makes my heart flutter... *blush*

But first I must mention a certain nuisance named Eli. Ok so he's not a nuisance -anymore- but that kid really REALLY .... a;lkdjfkdjf. Get what I'm saying here? Yes, this Eli was is the kid who was head over heals in love with me. *cough* before I broke his poor little heart *cough*

Whatever, I just wanted to mention that I DID break up with him, but it was this huge big thing because one of my jerk face friends -she's no longer my friend. I tried to mend that broken bridge but it just didn't work- made it a big thing that BITCH *ahem* excuse me.

Anyways, the reason for the big drama thing is because my jerk face friend read one of my posts -said post has since been deleted-, freaked out, told another over reacting jerk face friend, who, in response to hearing what I had to say on my blog -she didn't even SEE THE FREAKING POST- went straight to a heart broken Eli and told him all about it. *pissed* And that is why I've taken such a long break from writing on this blog.

NOW BACK TO THE MORE INTERESTING STUFF ^_^ Remember in one of my earlier posts -the post 'what the Hell'-  (I changed the name cause I didn't want it to be too easily spotted... anyways) I mentioned a certain... someone... who's name is kinda Sam... and I just so happened to mention him a little earlier in this post and ohmygod *blushes so much I turn into a tomato*

Ok here's the base of our relationship in a quick thingamabob- I like him, he likes me, he has a girlfriend in Colorado. I'm a freshmen, he's a senior, and -I'm pretty sure- she's a senior. I'm not ready -nowhere freaking near- ready for... intimate... um things. He is, she is, and they have indulged in such acts of... intimacy. (Oh dear God I'm such a nerd)

I... it's... ugh.

Romance is always so complicated *sigh* oh well, I'll keep you posted about this strange relationship of mine (I'M BACK BABY)

I should probably tell you that when Sam and I are together we have the most adorable time ever and ohmygod if he were MINE I would die.

~Rose

p.s. I'm just going to let the cat out of the bag, My name is actually Samantha (Samuel, Samantha IS THAT NOT ADORIBLE?!?!?) Everyone calls me Sammie :)

I'm not going to go change the name of all the posts I've written -and signed off of- to Sammie, that girl, Rose (I chose that name cause I loved it) she... seems like a completely different person then the one I am now.

~Sammie