Sick

Hey there people of Earth (and anywere else you might be) How's it goin? Well for me? It's alright.
I just want to post here that I've been sick for like most of my life! I hate it so much.

When I was little I would always have sinus infections and migranes oh and don't forget some minor dyslexia. yay. Well, My teachers would always be so pissed with me because I was always complainig about how I didn't feel good and they just didn't care. I had to beg to be able to go to the nurse, and then she would turn me away because I didn't have a tempature (I hardly ever have a tempature) so anyways my mom took me to the doctor atlease once a week and they couldn't find out what was wrong with me.

They said I was perfectly healthy. Well obiously not! I would be poked and prodded untill they got enough blood to be satisfyed for the next... hour or so. Then the tests would come back negative and I would go back to loose some more of my blood!

It took me about twelve specialists to get to were I am today. I take about five pills every night for the regular stuff, and then I'll usually have some other antibiotic with that to help with some other problem.

Did I mention that I also have major depression? It's not an easy thing to live with (unless you have the right medication) I've come to a neer end a few times already before they figured out (this year) that I have depression. They figured out (about two years ago) that I get migranes. They started me on shots for allergies (once a week every week. One shot in each arm). I also have a bunch of trouble sleeping insomnia I suppose so they have me on this little white pill to help with that.

Then, I have the other meds for when I have strep throat, walking phnomia, the commen cold, the flu, mono... I think thats it. (well for now) oh ya and the regular sinus crap that I get from all the pollen in the air.

Lets see... I get at lease three pills for when I have strep. One is the anitbiotic and the other two are counter antibiotics to keep the first pill from screwing up my digestive system. Walking phnomia... well actually lets just assume that all of the other desieses are just ten times worse cause I through up. So theres anti nausia medicen sometimes shots to help me fend off this crap and well, the usual.

My favorite medicen is sleep <3 It works wonders.

Now with all of that said, I still live. I'm still alive. I'm still going. It isn't easy, but I'm able to do it with the help of my friends, my family, and that innervoice that is annoying as hell. You know, the one thats always like 'keep going! You can do it! Don't give up!!!' and you're just like 'uuuuuugggggghhhhh' Ya that one.

I miss a lot of school, I basically have to teach myself some of the material, my teachers get super pissed because I won't turn in the homework that they gave me the very day I get back, I miss out on spending time with my friends, and so so much more. But, It's all worth it for those days when I am alright. Those nights when I stay up till three in the morning goofing off with my friends. It's worth the effort to keep fighting for all the times that warm fuzzy feeling kicks in, and you know that everythings going to be alright in the end.

Ya, it's deffinitly worth it.