Bad Day

My Tech teacher, Mr. Livesay, told me that I will never make it in highschool.

No kidding, he actually said that to me! He was putting in grades from this sumester and he calls me to his desk, looks at what I've completed, and states "you need to get that under controll. If you can't then you're never going to make it in High School. I've done the best I can but all I can give you is a B." And While he says that 'He's helped me the best he can' he's acting as if I'm some hopeless child that will never make it in life. Well, by stating that I will never make it in highschool it's just like saying I'm going to fail in life.

In his class we have to do at least three stations to get a good grade, I only completed one because I was never at school. Because I was sick. But the station I did complete was one of the most difficult, time consuming, pain in the ass staitons there were!

Anyways, the point is he voiced my greatest fear. Thats what I fear most about Highschool. I fear not being able to complete the tasks given to me because I'm not there to recieve them.

 *sigh* ever since i started fifth grade I've been hearing those words, "you're never going to make it in highschool if you can't even make it to school" Ok, yes, that makes sense! But HELLO I'm unhealthy! I've joked about comming to school while I was sick and I've been yelled at because of it! I can't catch a break! What is their problem!?

I just realised this...

Teachers and principals are always trying to make sure the kids are learning in a safe invironment, where the child has no fear of being harassed. And they've done a pretty good job of it to! (at least in my school system) No one gets into trouble because everyone lives in 'peace' with each other. All bullying is nipped in the bud before it can become a full out Haters war.

But what if that child isn't bullied by the students, but by the teachers? All odds are against them, espically if everyone agrees. What power do we have? If it's one teacher then obiously you can just 'tattle' and be done with them. But what if it isn't just one teacher? What if it's all of them? What if they pull you out into the hallway and imply repeatiedly that you are not fit to be apart of their class.

What do you do then?

I'll tell you, you listen. You listen, and then you go find yourself a nice bathroom to cry in. Sometimes you don't even have a chance to do that. If you don't? Then you go home and some sort of 'accedent' happens and your body misterisly has red painfull looking scars scattered about. Who know's how they got there... could have been anything.

There's no way to 'fight the power'. There's a reason there called 'the power'.

Who agrees with them? When you're out of school for a certen amount of time, and you come back you should have all of your work done and ready to turn in. Well I do. I agree. I just can't do it. Because I'm SICK There's a REASON I've been out of school! I swear I'm not just skipping! They don't understand how much LIFE I miss because of my defective body.

Examples being:
I missed the valentines dance this year because I was sick with strep throat.
I missed going to the lake with my friends becaue I had micro plasma
I've missed sleepovers and movie premears and park days because of some viris
I can't go outside for too long In the summer because I'll get light headed
I can't sit down in the grass
Durning over night feild trips I'm pulled out of an activity for a few minuets so that I can take all of my medicen
I can't eat pizza
I can't eat anything with red die 40 in it

I just... want it to all go away. I want to be healthy like my friends are, and I want to be able to enjoy a nice day in the sun without getting sick because of the heat/pollen about.

I really want to be better.Trust me, I go to school whenever I can.

~Rose